Long Call Day

Alhamdulillah, I just got called to the Bar on 7th December 2018.

The one who I want to thank you the most are of course my parents ❤️, my siblings especially my sisters and my close friends who accompany me through this journey. Not to forget my Master, the other Partners of the firm and all the staffs who were very helpful and kind to me during my pupillage. May God bless all of you as a bunch of thank you is never enough.

Lawyered already, haha (or almost lawyered). I can’t wait to embark into this new journey.

Truth to be told, I actually still hesitated whether to practice as a lawyer or not. I found out that doing bankruptcy matters quite bored me, and I decided to try for general litigation next time perhaps.

“Hi, I’m Hannah, can you please hire me for an associate for your general litigation department please?” 🤣🤣

Favourite Book #1

I want to write about something, and I think it's good to start with the things that I love to do; reading. And this is one of my favourite books kinda review. And why I love it so much.

To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

(lunyai, haha)

I read this book when I was 17 or 18. It was my sister's, she bought it as her friend recommended it to her. And as soon I finished this book, it was soon become one of my favourite books! Coincidentally when I was first reading this book, I was in Foundation in Law and reading this book kinda give me a feel like a path I have taken was true haha. That 'Atticus' feels. I love his character so much!

I love the fact that the story was told by a narrative of a 6-year-old child, Scout and she was such an innocent, and frank, especially when there was sometimes she asking Atticus questions. I love the interaction of Scout and her brother, Jem and also about the mysterious ghostly character of Boo Radley. Whenever at first I heard them talking about someone inside the house (their neighbour, Boo Radley), I was actually thinking "Is that guy even exist? Lol". Until the last plot of the book.

This book is dealing with racial inequality, integrity, courage, compassion, kindness, hatred and also humor. The character of Atticus feels so real. He was an embodiment that I somehow want to be. Tried to be. 

In this book, Atticus represented a black man accused of raping a young white woman. The repercussion occurred as the citizen disapproved of his action in defending a black, and called him "nigger-lover". The scene of the trial in open court was interesting and intense.

And as I love this book so much, I recommended to my friends, discussing it with them and my sister. After that, I realized that this book is a classic modern American literature that widely taught in schools in US and maybe in other states too.

Whenever I travel far from home, or just go hiking and away for a few days, I usually always bring along this book. I like to reread a book that I was so familiar with during my favourite time (and tough time). :)

I remembered that I bring this book during hiking, and also I read it when I commenced my first few days of pupillage at my current firm, as I was not assigned to any task.

There are many lines in the book that caught me off guard. And my favourites are:

(source: google)

..and this conversation between Scout and Jem about her class with Miss Gates on that day, when she asked him how someone who hated a crime against the Jews (the Holocaust) but at the same time treated the Black people poorly.

"...how can you hate Hitler so bad an' then turn around and be ugly about folks right at home-" -Scout

(The sequel came yearsss after that, before H. Lee passed away, and I intend to review that book too!)

S.u.f.f.o.c.a.t.e.d

I was thinking,

whether I want to do this kind of things for the rest of my life.

I am so freaked out of uncertainty.

I was so miserable in this past few weeks. I even caught in fever and cold.

Tentang Seseorang

Ku lari ke hutan
Kemudian menyanyiku
Ku lari ke pantai
Kemudian teriakku
Sepi-sepi dan sendiri
Aku benci

Aku ingin bingar
Aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya, biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke hutan lalu belok ke pantai?



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Sedang dalam melayan filem Ada Apa Dengan Cinta 1 & 2, sebab ada kawan ajak untuk berlibur di Jakarta dan Jogjakarta untuk melalui kawasan-kawasan shooting AADC. Sebelum ni tak pernah nonton cerita ini, jadi kena buat homework dulu.

And I love the poetry reading in AADC so much OMG... Where I had been gone in AADC era hahaha.. And Rangga read the book 'Aku', the one in my possession for years now. And both of them love Chairil Anwar's poems!

Kawan aku cakap aku ni Rangga versi perempuan. Ha. Ha. Ha.

I'm cold, but not that cold eheh. 

Rat Race Cycle

I read something on the page of Humans of New York that made me ponder upon my life as general. Whether I am the one who also tries to catch up with the all the things that one should have as the society modeled us to be.

I had graduated last year, now doing my pupillage. Later on maybe will be searching for another stable job. Even now I had friends who had gotten married and produced a few kids already. Maybe the fact that I am still single now, none in my future plans include marriage and kids, yet. However, whenever I see a couple happily stroll in a park or a mall, with their kids around sometimes made me feel such a longing.

Or maybe when I saw someone posted in their instagram about their traveling anywhere around the world made me feel such a longing too. That they have such a time and money to take a vacation while I myself stuck doing whatever I am doing now. I just hope that this kind of things would not bother me much, so I distant myself from social media for a few moments. Except to read the news.

I know that things sometimes would be difficult. And we should always strive. I love a post that I read from Wani Ardy's blog, her words still ringing in my head and heart.

"See, that's the thing. The fact that we don't get everything, shows that we've got something. Hope, my friend, is a privilege. The ability to want something, is a privilege. The possibility of getting what we want, is a privilege."

I realized that I should always appreciate the small things in life that would make my days better. Maybe when I see a rainbow after the rain stop. Or sipping into a good coffee and having a tasty dessert like chocolate brownies or pavlova (or anything chocolate, yum!). Or maybe the smell of the rain, or a sunset. Appreciate the small things. Like the good parents and family members that always there whenever you reach them. And the good friends around you.

May I would not fall into doing something just because everyone is doing it. Ameen.

Be Kind

So much hatred on social media nowadays. I hate to open my FB or twitter even just to read the news, as I will eventually scroll into some mean comments or status post from the social media friends. It is so easy to be a bully, especially on the internet.

Sometimes I feel it. It is so easy to be hateful. It is so easy to be mean and leave a snarky comment.

It is so hard to be a kind person when you feel like the world only revolves around you. Where people should only see the world the way you see it. Where you think that everybody gets the same privilege as you did, so they should not choose the way that does not fit into your liking.

Isn't it strange? You expect people to respect your belief/opinion, but you refused to give the same kind of respect to the people who have a different belief/opinion than you. You championed your rights of the majority but refused to acknowledge the minority as if they do not have any rights at all. Is this what your religion teaches you for?

In a world of hateful people, please be kind. Religion does not teach you to be hateful towards others. Hate, arrogance, feeling entitled to everything, is not a religious thing.

Ahh, kindness. Please, be kind. It is easy to judge others. But it costs you zero to give other people respect.

..

Ternyata yang paling sukar untuk difahami itu adalah hati

di saat perasaan berkecamuk antara kata 'ya' dan 'tidak'

Aku butuh waktu dan ruang 

untuk memikirkan semula tentang segalanya

Semoga Tuhan memaafkan khilafku 

dalam berfikir dan mengorak langkah

Hanya melalui kegelapan, 

seseorang itu bisa menemukan cahaya.

- Yatti Musa Adam

#MalamDanPuisi

Ramadan

Ramadan bersama keluarga.

Ramadan ketika zaman belajar.

Ramadan ketika bekerja.

Semua situasi di atas berbeza suasananya. Memandangkan sekarang aku berada jauh daripada keluarga dan sedang memasuki alam pekerjaan, jadi pastinya pengalaman Ramadan kali ini berbeza. 

Tapi aku tetap sama. Haih.

Nak berterusan mengejar pahala ini ada turun naik surutnya. Syukur juga mempunyai rakan-rakan penyewa yang baik, yang mengajak untuk berterawih, berjemaah.. Cuma antara hendak atau tak hendak sahaja.

Dan aku juga sedang merancang bagaimana untuk membaiki kelemahan diri selepas berakhir Ramadan. Moga bukan sekadar tinggal rancangan.