Tentang Seseorang

Ku lari ke hutan
Kemudian menyanyiku
Ku lari ke pantai
Kemudian teriakku
Sepi-sepi dan sendiri
Aku benci

Aku ingin bingar
Aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya, biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke hutan lalu belok ke pantai?



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Sedang dalam melayan filem Ada Apa Dengan Cinta 1 & 2, sebab ada kawan ajak untuk berlibur di Jakarta dan Jogjakarta untuk melalui kawasan-kawasan shooting AADC. Sebelum ni tak pernah nonton cerita ini, jadi kena buat homework dulu.

And I love the poetry reading in AADC so much OMG... Where I had been gone in AADC era hahaha.. And Rangga read the book 'Aku', the one in my possession for years now. And both of them love Chairil Anwar's poems!

Kawan aku cakap aku ni Rangga versi perempuan. Ha. Ha. Ha.

I'm cold, but not that cold eheh. 

Rat Race Cycle

I read something on the page of Humans of New York that made me ponder upon my life as general. Whether I am the one who also tries to catch up with the all the things that one should have as the society modeled us to be.

I had graduated last year, now doing my pupillage. Later on maybe will be searching for another stable job. Even now I had friends who had gotten married and produced a few kids already. Maybe the fact that I am still single now, none in my future plans include marriage and kids, yet. However, whenever I see a couple happily stroll in a park or a mall, with their kids around sometimes made me feel such a longing.

Or maybe when I saw someone posted in their instagram about their traveling anywhere around the world made me feel such a longing too. That they have such a time and money to take a vacation while I myself stuck doing whatever I am doing now. I just hope that this kind of things would not bother me much, so I distant myself from social media for a few moments. Except to read the news.

I know that things sometimes would be difficult. And we should always strive. I love a post that I read from Wani Ardy's blog, her words still ringing in my head and heart.

"See, that's the thing. The fact that we don't get everything, shows that we've got something. Hope, my friend, is a privilege. The ability to want something, is a privilege. The possibility of getting what we want, is a privilege."

I realized that I should always appreciate the small things in life that would make my days better. Maybe when I see a rainbow after the rain stop. Or sipping into a good coffee and having a tasty dessert like chocolate brownies or pavlova (or anything chocolate, yum!). Or maybe the smell of the rain, or a sunset. Appreciate the small things. Like the good parents and family members that always there whenever you reach them. And the good friends around you.

May I would not fall into doing something just because everyone is doing it. Ameen.